I've lost my love and my best friend and it really hurts.
I know I have to just let go, and whatever is going to happen is going to happen, but it's hard.
I haven't been sleeping good. I've been having messed up dreams, and I just wake up all stressed out. School is driving me crazy. I have two tests Wednesday and I have no idea what to expect. I had work all day today. Some girl said she'd take my hours, of course she bailed on me yesterday. I was just so exhausted today. Every little thing just was getting to me. We close at 4 and all these people just kept showing up. I didn't clock out until almost 20 after. Then I get home and take my backpack out of the car and everything just spills out of it because it was unzipped. It was one of those moments where I just wanted to scream and cry. My life is spiraling out of control. I don't know what to do.
Sara and I are seeing Chris Daughtry saturday though. I know a few songs are going to get me. Brian was suppose to go with us, but he's obviously not. So I think it will be bitter sweet. I'll be happy to see him, but at the same time Brian was suppose to be there with us, and I never would have imagined we'd be at this point.
I miss him more than he'll ever know :(